Justin, I hope that I am not out of line here, but you post such good comments and see the depth in so much.  But I  know from your other posts that you struggle greatly to experience the freedom that we have in Christ, could it be that your mind is too cluttered with all that confusing stuff you are reading.  Christ is simple, not confusing, knowing Him and the freedom and life He gives to us doesn't require "depth" in the way that you are going.  I don't see depth, I see nonsense disguised as "depth".  This is coming from one who is old enough to your mother, probably your grandmother :), and I have been around quite a bit of "depth" that is not depth. So take it from your sister in Christ, leave that other stuff alone and find your true depth in the simplicity of Christ and Him only.  Love and hugs, Charlotte